The Breathing Prosperity blog

LOVE.

This word is so frequently used it almost has no meaning these days…it also means very different things to different people. This post is about love….what started out in my mind as questions about love for someone else became a gift I am giving myself…and because it is so amazing, I want to share it with you, too. 

I have been having a wonderful time in my life, lately, with the powerful exception that I have not been happy with my other half, for myriad reasons. Knowing what I know about creating my reality, and about the people in my life being my mirrors, I have been looking inside for what complex web of beliefs may be at the root of the anger and resentment I have been nursing. I KNOW better than this, so it surprised and intrigued me all the more. I assumed that I was allowing this person to be my ‘anger outlet’ and manifesting anger towards him, no matter where it initiated…which is entirely unfair, and one more reason for me to figure this out and promptly stop it.

I have realized that I have difficulty showing love to someone when they have done something I resent or feel slighted by – even if we have discussed and seemingly gmoved past said issue. I feel like they don’t ‘deserve’ it; they have not lived up to my expectations. This in itself is ridiculous, because we cannot and should not have any expectations of others. We can only control and direct oursleves, and even that is a challenge at times, as you know!

Also, I see that I am afraid that if some day this relationship should end, I will have been false in showing open, unabashed affection in the present; as if I had made a promise I could not keep. My strong belief is that people should stay together because they consciously CHOOSE to stay together, not because of any promise made when they were two very different people long ago. I have created, then, a situation where I cannot show true, deep love in the present because I do not know what the future holds.

This leads me to something unexpected…I can choose to feel and express love for ME. Because this is who I am, not because it is a promise. Because in doing so I am letting go of all the negatives that are in MY mind; not his. Like someone wisely said recently, not forgiving someone is like taking poison yourself, and expecting someone else to die.

No matter what the future holds, our present will now be much brighter and easier, because I am giving MYSELF the gift of love, by showing it and feeling it. You cannot give, or receive, what is not already in your heart. Abundance and prosperity include love and harmony, so in denying these things to myself and anyone close to me, I have been blocking my own flow of abundance. Ahem: Universe, I am cleared and ready to open the flow!

Tags: expanding love, love, mirror principle